Feeling BLUE ;(

I bloody cut the loses and run. That is who I am. Call me a coward, but that is what I do.
I do not like hurting myself. Masochist and me, no bloody way!! I am a self centered brat through and through and I will protect myself no matter what.
Ok, let me start from the beginning, I am a sad loser who cares too much about people. It all started with my sister. I mean she might be the first person that was my possession.. I did not like it when she was closer to my cousin sister. Then my mom, my dad, my brother; the number of my possessions kept growing.
Finally, I went to college, where I found really great friends (translation, possessions) And now my friend in Dubai.
Just to explain stuff, one very wise person once said that change is the only permanent thing in life. And it is that very "change" that I hated/still hate the most.
I am scared that when things change, the people I overtly care about will change, essentially making them less caring than they were (if they ever did care in the first place)
To continue with my possessions, when things change, I just DO NOT go with the flow (as is healthy) I get stubborn and continue being in that very place where I was left. Scared and trembling and acting tough.
People say you grow up with time. I guess this aspect of mine never will grow or leave me.
As I said, I cut the losses and run. I had to run all the way from India to UAE to find peace within myself after my last huge change. I wonder in which direction will I run this time. Well, whichever that is, its sure gonna take me far far away from where I am right now. And the funniest thing is, it is about 4000 kms each time..
I did whine away to glory this time :)

Muah to all my 3 followers :)