Hi,

Have a lot of things to write, dnt know how much I will manage to write. Can hear my thoughts falling asleep one by one. Can feel them dropping into deep sleep.
So I was thinking, what gift would you like the most. Not just a gift, (they are waking up :D ) but the ultimate wish. What would u like the most?
My cousin sis recently asked me this question. I found myself wondering. I am going to tell u, not about the present, but the past.
I used to think that I would love to hear other's thoughts. U know, what they think of me. Now when I think about it, I guess it was because I wanted to be loved by others. But later, I realized that it would be a heavy burden. A much more heavy burden than one could imagine. I can hear my brain buzz right now. If there was someone who could actually hear my thoughts, thry would have committed suicide by now.
My point is that, human mind is way more polluted than can be expressed by the word polluted. It just cannot contain the pollution an adult human brain can hold. And it is always a burden to hear others' thoughts. If someone, anyone thinks bad of me, I would be depressed for days.

Ciao!

Hi,

Just here to share my thoughts again. I had gone for this interview last week; for the post of Senior Airport Assistant with the Emirates airlines. Had to take a test first after which we had a group discussion. I do not know how the hiring process works in my country, but in UAE, it is pretty cool. Had to compete with 5 other contestants from 5 different countries, all with exp greater than me. Well, knowing that I am a fresher altogether, it is not a surprise. So we had this written test, all just Eng test and general knowledge. After that, we had the GD, all of us. That was the deciding round. We were either thrown out or allowed to stay after that round. After that round, we all came out and were waiting in the lounge. That is when the HR rep from Emirates, a very beautiful lady called Sara came out with the selected few. Even the number was unclear. First she chose this guy who came with me to the exam; actually, we just walked together to the room. So he was selected. I was happy for him coz he was desperate. Then this other lady. A very sweet and homely lady who was from somewhere in Europe. Again, I could not help but feel happy for her. As Sara was giving her the time for the interview, she said "Shalini, no no no; Emma will have the interview by 11:20." My heart just went flying out. I was heart flown!! ;)
But when in 3 seconds time, I was told that I was also selected for my interview round, my heart just came back in with a lot of acidity :D But the feeling is strangely unsettling; when u think that u almost did not get it. When I was thinking back, I felt strange. As if the heart was beginning to sprout wings again ;(

久しぶり！

ここで日本語で書くのは始めてだね。今「耳を澄ませば」を見ている。それを見てうらやましく感じた。学校で恋人ができたらどんなによかったなとおもちゃた。その二人は何の悪い思いも無く無邪気に恋をしている。うらやましいいい！
おだやかな日に好きな人と一緒に図書館に座りたい。その後二人でちっちゃな喫茶店でコヒーを飲みたい。簡単に思われるでしょう。ぜんぜん簡単じゃないわよ。もう大学も卒業したしもうすぐ仕事にも入るかもしれない。大学でないとソールメートも見つけないという気がする。。：（
ひとつ忘れたことがある。「耳を澄ませば」や「ハウルの動く城」をみたことある？そんなところで住みたい。そこの喫茶店へ行きたい。できないけどさあ。。

Long time no see.. How are you all? Hope that other than the 2 people whom I bullied into reading my blog, some others might have read it.. :D
I am not sure what I want to write about. Have had a full life these 4-5 months. Had a lot of fun, started teaching Japanese, read a paper in a seminar and the worst thing of all; my uncle registered me in a matrimony site. Hate the very idea. Anybody who would be kind enough to marry her off please take this burden off our shoulders. I felt like crap hearing the news. I really really wish I could be spirited away. Just run run and run for my life seems to be a much better idea than just sitting around waiting for something to happen. I still have my dreams of my prince charming coming on a white horse. But I dont see that happening. Now this sucks! Why can I not just die and end this miserable life!! If you look at my life from a certain point of view, it is fun and happening. But I am totally suffocating here..