Love : Or the absence of it thereby :D

I finally figured it out! Aaaah, feels so good.
It is not that I do not like the guys that like me to begin with or that I love only those guys that do not give a damn.. :)
It is just that I fall in love with those and only those that despise me. It is possible that I am so much of a commitment phobic that the thought of liking a guy that might like me back is just frightening. Or is it because I am a masochist? Not so sure. I am not much of a masochist under normal circumstances. I hate anything or anyone that even comes near hurting me. But I guess this is all about the sweet pain of being in love (and the more intense pain of falling out of it :p)

There is this new guy I like. A photographer. He seemed to like me in the beginning. And that drove me off the wall. And now that he doesn't seen to give a damn, I am crawling back up, looking for a sign of affection :D I am flirting and everything.. ;)
I am a little crazy, I have to admit.

I have no idea what guys, that I like and that may like me, wants me to say. Otherwise I am this conversation wizard who keeps shut only when she eats (yup, I talk in sleep too) And it so turns out that I know what to say and when to say, to make people happy.
That reminds me, today this very very old man (perhaps Pakistani, or maybe an Indian) told me "Good job dear"! He said this in Hindi and all that I did was give him directions; something I do all the time. But the feeling it gave was like a summer breeze or a hot breeze in mid-winter. Something of a comfort :)

Bye the Bye :D